Well, it appears that I was wrong to want a submissive.
As it stands right now, he is right and I am wrong. I thought he was accusing me of infidelity in spite of no sex. Apparently not now. No matter what I say, it's wrong.

I've given up the lifestyle along with all my friends. Now I have no one but him. So now I will go back to my miserable life where he criticizes and I try to defend myself.

This **** is going to give me a heart attack. My chest hurts all the time from all the tension.

Anyway, just thought I should post. Don't ever want anything unless you ask first, even when you know it' should be okay to have it. Most likely you are wrong.