Hey. I post here very seldom but read quite often. Unfortunately I've been rubbish at posting support for anyone.

Before xmas I had a down patch, then over xmas and New year I felt a lot better, and over the past couple of weeks I'm feeling a bit worse again. One of the main factors is tiredness. A lot of the time I'm so tired, the only thing I can think about is how tired I am and how I want to close my eyes. I've had a few different blood tests and everything is normal, I'm trying to eat healthier and eat more protein, but I think it's a combination of physical and emotional tiredness, because my job is very active.

Today some keys got stolen out of my vehicle and that was like a blow of exhaustion and depression. I meant to go out today and look around the neighbourhood in case whoever took the keys tossed them when they realised they weren't for any house in the area, but instead I fell asleep on the floor. Sleeping on the floor is a red flag for me. Day to day I haven't been feeling so depressed - no constant suicidal thoughts - but small triggers just exhaust me and make me want to end it. I'm in contact with my dr about the tiredness in case it's my meds.

I feel like I haven't got many people to talk to. I see a therapist but my friends are actually more of a source of stress right now. I've definitely had worse in terms of depression but today I just feel finished. I keep emotionally shutting down. It's like I just can't do it any more.