But when the finances and the car get in the way of Hope being able to take care of herself then it makes sense for people to want to help. It isnt as simple as those things being unrelated to her current situation. If she is frequently going without medication because of her finances or because of her car situation and it is causing her to get into situations like this- then there is something she can actually do something about. Something she can actually work on so it DOESNT happen. People wanting to help her out of that hole seems like only a good thing.

What did your therapist say about BPD hope? Because thats what I really think this is. It isnt so much the medication, or the car, or the money- which is part of maybe why you are so resistant to suggestions about those things. If you keep putting yourself in situations where you dont have access to your medication then you can blame not having medication for your actions- actions which seem really textbook BPD.

I know you dont want to face a borderline diagnosis. But this splitting you do with people where they are all good, and then all bad. Where you are texting them constantly and then shutting them out. Where you are unable to control your impulses and are damaging your relationships. It seems like its a continuing pattern. And it seems painful. And it doesnt seem like its going to change until you do some reflection about it. Because you seem to do a lot of flitting from one feeling to the next- maybe sitting back and thinking about WHY you are feeling this thing or that thing might make some sense?