Oof could not sit still or focus at all today during work. Hoping I can get it together tonight for this outside of work project. I pretty much admitted to my coworker I was having trouble sitting still and hoped I was not too annoying (we share an office). I also caught myself trying to pick at my face and had to keep stopping myself. Had to go on multiple strolls outside around the office building. You get the idea. Also felt so irritable from trying to sit still. Not sure if I would have been irritable if I had been able to move around more or if I was just irritable in general. Anyways, otherwise I am doing fine. I got a kombucha and some chocolate to enjoy while working tonight. Oh, I saw that the referral popped up in my patient portal for both specialists and I am honestly so excited at this prospect of really getting some help with my symptoms. But, I am stuck in my head ruminating on past events and thinking I might not be a good person, which makes me almost feel undeserving of the help. Why are brains so complicated? Haha