I don’t play it but I follow people on twitter who talk about it and I watch cutscenes on YouTube. I try to not look him up but whether I do or don’t my feelings for him are same . Hocd is ocd which makes you obsess your lesbian gay. I think these go together cause I’m extremely attracted to him but I know he’s not real and real guys aren’t perfect. I’m worried I’ll never be attracted to a real guy again since they don’t look like him and it fuels my hocd