It has been 1 month into my college semester and I am already thinking about dropping an economics class I am taking. I just took my first test and I struggled a lot. Every time I am in class, the professor explains the material and to me, it sounds like a foreign language because I don't understand a thing. I only get a clue about what is going when I go see the class tutor. I've been seeing the tutor for help 2-3 times per week and even then I can't get a handle of what is going. I am thinking about dropping because I don't want to make the mistake of letting things get worse and potentially ruining my GPA.

I know it is all the way back in high school but I took AP economics where I dropped at the end of the fall semester. I wanted to prove myself that I can overcome that obstacle. I am taking this economics class because I want to minor in marketing so it is a prerequisite. I hate quitting, especially early. That is making me feel depressed about this decision. At the same time, I don't this class to continue interfering with my 2 other classes. I am not spending enough time for the other classes.

There is another reason as to why I feel depressed in terms of not doing well in class. It sounds really trivial. There is this girl that I like in class. We previously met and was surprised she was in the class. She is struggling as much as I am. I really wish that I grasped the material well so we would not be dreading the class as much. It is not so much about liking her but I like having someone to study with. I like it when she texts me asking what I got in a certain question in the homework. Never had that before. It feels like we are trying to push each other up. I feel really dumb when she struggles and I can't come up with anything. Regardless of what she does, I am taking the decision that is best for me.

I don't know the test result yet but if I pass, I plan on staying. If I don't pass, I will most likely end up dropping.