Yeah, I do have a lot to deal with and I certainly don't need this. I talked with my T today and she said that she saw the co-dependency from day one with him. He has emailed me and told me that right now he needs to deal with his own co-dependency issues and learn how to love himself because he knows he has been allowing me to pay for everything and do everything because he doesn't love himself. (?)
I am trying to stay safe. I promised T that I would not do anything this weekend because I KNEW she would send me to the hospital. I am going to try my hardest not to do anything. I am promising myself that I won't fail.
I am soooo staying here with you all because right now I have nothing and no one and I feel so absolutely alone. Nightmares last night and turning over to cuddle and he isn't there....my heart aches.

BJ