Title is supposed to be inspire the GOT quote but I'm guessing I failed there.




But on a more serious note, any of you that know me, and have read my few posts about my life in the past and my situation with my wife (technically ex but not... etc) And the things I've been through with all of her moving away for years. leaving me with the kids when they were younger, moving back in supposedly on a "temporary" basis which turned into what is now years later...

Well after all this time patience itself was not in vain. She is moving out on her own after all this time. She has secured a position with a company that will provide her living quarters (an apartment) and paid living expenses related to that - that is rent and utilities which is perfect for her. I have prayed over the years with that in mind that I don't wish anyone, not even her, to be homeless but just simply have a way to live separately so that I can go forward with the long overdue divorce.

This is all great news and a change that is good but... at the same time, I'm facing the unknown for the first time in quite awhile now so not sure how I feel about it all, what I will do with myself, my life etc... it's strange, I'm not afraid, so much as just like wait... what now? I guess that's a good thing in a way but just unsure of how to articulate my feelings on this right now
pretty sure staying single, after this is likely what will happen for awhile if not permanently. I have periodic times when I'd like to have a mate and all that goes with it but after the years and more than one SO that was manipulative and abusive, not sure I am convinced anymore that it's ever any different in relationships and that smothers any spark for ever wanting a new thing in the future. I don't close that door completely but really it's not wide open either. We'll see how that goes, but I seem to be rambling now...
anyway just sharing.