Depressed, but I am managing to get out of bed and will go out for a drink later. Since I do not work today, that is making a significant difference. Work is killing me though. I am trying to hold out until beginning of April, which is when I qualify for FMLA. I am looking into short-term disability too though, but I need to talk to my pdoc. Short-term disability would probably be the best choice. I am quite sure she will be on board with signing off on the paperwork as I've been in this position before where she was willing. Next weekend is my birthday, which will be a distraction, although it is somewhat triggering. I look back on these past few years and feeling that I've missed out on things, and I don't really know how to help myself. My mom is sick, who has been my biggest support. She can't get out of bed. Anyway, hopefully I'll be able to pull myself together later and have a decent time out, although I feel pretty apathetic, and it's hard to hide how I feel around others. I hope you all have a nice weekend and hugs to all who are in need.