I mean... why do you think drug addicts often relapse after they've gone through detox and are clean? It's not that being high just feels good. It's that it's an effortless escape from emotional pain. That's hard to resist.

I sympathize with your feelings but I hope you don't go down that path. I do get it. I'm extremely depressed and it's to the point where I'm not sure what I'd do if someone offered me something really awful, like heroin. Is that crazy, or what? But I just want some relief, you know? Just for a little while. I can totally understand the allure of drugs in that way. Luckily, my depression has completely isolated me so I am safe from temptation. I wouldn't know where to get that stuff, and my rational self knows what a terrible idea it would be to go looking. But I get it.