My boyfriend and I have been together for 4 years now and I love him dearly. We get along great and rarely fight. We have recently started talking about getting married and having children soon.. but I still struggle to trust him and fully open up to him. I think starting a marriage without the trust would be a reckless decision on my part. I think the main thing leading my distrust is his porn habits.. Very early in our relationship I discovered he had an Instagram account full of hundreds of naked women/ porn stars/ supermodels. This immediately made me feel insecure and like I couldn’t compete with women that attractive, so I asked him to delete the account and explained how it made me feel. He deleted it only later to keep looking these women up online. I found out again and we spoke about it and he agreed to stop. I told him I would leave him if he continued to do this. Now a few years later I found out he has a second Snapchat that is FULL of “premium girls” . He has been using this account for over 2 years now behind my back. I feel so insecure and betrayed and cheated on. I don’t know if I’m overreacting or if my feelings here are totally normal ? It seems so much more personal when he following these specific girls and sneaking off to look at their naked pictures.. How do I get passed this ? How do I learn to trust him ? I have anxiety and depression issues and going through things like this in my relationship just tear me down mentally and I eventually shut down and quit talking to everyone because my mind is so preoccupied thinking about this stuff. Any advice or suggestions would be so appreciated!