Symptoms returning at the wrong time. Two more weeks until I change jobs and I feel like I am going back in time to five years ago when I was at my worst. I am getting scared. The suicidal thoughts are getting louder. I am not sleeping well. Anxiety is through the roof. I wish I could flip a switch to hypomania at least then I might be productive.

My boss at work is so petty that she refused to plan a going away lunch or happy hour like they always do. So her next in line stepped up to do it. Been there 20 years and just get kicked out the door. I really didn’t want any going away thing because I am antisocial but now I do just to spite her.