Hi Toto54, I'm sorry you're dealing with what you're dealing with internally. I agree with Sandman. You sound obsessed with her. You are guessing and assuming her thoughts and behaviors when you just can't know. She has made the decision not to continue your friendship, or whatever it was you guys may have fleetingly had. You need to respect that and also accept and move on. There are many other fish in the sea. I also agree with Sandman that we may not be getting the whole story from you. I wondered the same thing reading over this thread. My input would be to find a therapist who can help you sort through this.