Earthmama - I'm so sorry you're feeling so bad!!! And that missing t is threatening the connection.
I am in this boat with my MD. she was on vacation for 3 weeks and she always had me call every week with updates and i saw her every month. So i haven't seen her in 2 months. I stopped calling her while she was gone - i even stopped writing the log she has me keep. She's been back 2 weeks now and I have not resumed any updates. I even thought she might call to check on me and to tell me to start the updates, but she hasn't. I think maybe she is relieved that there is now more time when not having to think about me. I am seeing her on monday, but now in my mind she isn't real any more. Like i don't know her. I can't even comprehend it.
All this is really trying to have me brainstorm on what can help you hold the connection. It makes me sad for you that you stopped carying the marble... =( when one sees t twice or more a week, the seperationgs (I think) are worse because the "Weeks" are so much shorter in between times.
Can you pretend to have sessions in your thoughts? Imagine sitting with t, talking, say the things you would really tell him and imagine (in his voice) what his replies would be...
(((((((((((((((hugs!!!))))))))))))))
Kiya