I am in love with someone who I think does love me...perhaps not romantically...maybe romantically?...but he has an outrageously busy school and work schedule (as do I) which would make a relationship hard. But I am madly and wildly in love with him and the L word is crushing upon me and demanding me to say it...I just don't know if I should. Perhaps it won't be reciprocated, which I'm at the point where, even if it's temporarily "no" now, there's a chance it could be reciprocated later down the road. I'm much more certain not just of my feelings for him but his feelings for me, but there's still that fear to tell him no and to face much more than a no...maybe an awkwardness in the friendship, maybe heartbreak. I don't think we'd lose the friendship, we are very close now and I feel certain that even if he doesn't feel the same, we'd still be friends.
But to me, it's not natural to NOT tell someone I love them...I'm not talking romantically here, I am used to telling the people I care about I love them, so it's awkward and restraining for me to not tell him I love him...but then again, I do have romantic feelings for him, more than friendship.
What should I do? If I love him, and even if he doesn't feel exactly the same but it's natural for me to say so, should I tell him I love him? Do I continue to bite my tongue? *sigh* It's driving me crazy!
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