Lazing about on my couch on this sunny Saturday afternoon. The fatigue continues. I manage general errands, catching up with people, and general housework, but I feel exhausted all the time. Sometimes I get dizzy. A bad Fibromyalgia flare-up. It’s been bad since just after I came out of hospital a month ago. In three weeks university starts. I really hope I’m improving by then.

On Thursday I saw my pdoc. While we are both happy with my mental health in regards to Bipolar or PTSD, it is clear that I have cognitive problems. He thinks they are caused by a mixture of fibromyalgia and dissociation. In the past I was on Ritalin and responded very well to it without issue. It was stopped as my current Pdoc took away the ADD diagnosis when I started seeing him.

The regulations on prescribing stimulants to people with bipolar is very strict now. My pdoc wants me back on Ritalin to help with my fatigue and cognitive problems. I agree. It would really help me be more functional. A letter of recommendation from my pdoc, a letter from me detailing the benefits Ritalin had, and a letter of recommendation from my T are all required to then be assessed by the state medical board. I see him again in seven weeks. Hopefully he will have an answer from the board. With my history of psychosis it may be a reach, but it is worth trying as both pdoc and T don’t believe it will affect me that way based on my past.