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Old Feb 01, 2020, 06:43 PM
kookieee kookieee is offline
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Originally Posted by bpcyclist View Post
Are you phsycially attracted to her? Or, I guess, what I really mean to ask is, do you think it is possible that you are physically attracted to her and just trying to hide that from yourself? Lots of people don't figure out they have attractions to the same sex until later in life. Lots.
I guess I can say that I am physically attracted to her but only with her face.. I don't find myself ever staring at any other body part of hers. I also can't imagine ever doing anything sexual or inappropriate with her, even if I had the chance to. I think I tried imagining once 'cause I was so confused but even just the thought of it feels icky to me (and I feel bad saying that lol). When I've really liked guys in the past, my thoughts can definitely get there and I can get turned on by certain things they've done. I've never been turned on from anything she's done, so I can at least tell that difference from other experiences.

Also from what I understood from classes in Psychology and testimonies of other people, I learned that you can have a physical, mental, and emotional attraction to someone but if you're not sexually attracted to them, then that doesn't really affect your sexuality.

I often find myself looking at her pictures and accidentally blurting out loud "She's SO f-ing pretty.. Like how can anyone be this pretty?? It's not fair" lol. So maybe it's more of a jealousy thing?

I think I'm mostly confused as to why I get this giddy when she smiles. Experiencing that at nearly 30 yrs old just feels so wrong to me and I feel insecure about it lol