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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25
I am exhausted. I was up very late last night worrying. I even took klonopin and while it calmed my heart rate, it didn’t help me sleep. I was worrying about my debt, how I could make money, etc. it was terrible. I think I finally fell asleep around 2am. At least I got to sleep in today.
My kitty is home from the hospital. He’s still straining to urinate but he’s alert. I hope it’ll go away. I don’t want to have to put him down.
I see my pdoc on Tuesday. I’m not going to tell her I already stopped the haldol; rather I’m going to “ask” her if I can try stopping it because of the jaw twitches. I have not had any twitches since I stopped the haldol. And I have not any psychotic symptoms, which makes sense because I only get psychotic in mood episodes and I haven’t had an episode since September.
Secretly, I am considering weaning off of depakote as well to see if I can manage on lamictal alone. I primarily suffer from depression, and I don’t really do anything dangerous when hypomania except maybe shop a bit more. Which I won’t do, considering how little I make. The depakote didn’t do much to prevent the hypomania episode I had two years ago, either. So I want to see if I can manage on just one med. I know I can’t manage on no meds. I’ve tried that many times and it has been disastrous. But maybe, just maybe, I can do with one. Don’t call me stupid, please.
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I applaud your stopping the Haldol, given what was going on. But remember, this disease/disorder/whatever it is can change as we get older. In my case, in my younger years (I am now 55), it was depression-centered. In the middle, it was really bad mania. Now, years later, my bipolar 1 is clearly in a major psychotic era. I get psychotic all the time now, depsite being on Abilify and Thorazine and a bunch of other crap. It is not a static process in some folks, so just remember that. The past is not always the best predictor of the future in bipolar disorder.
