It seems like you're REALLY trying your best to improve, @Nkent77! Good for you! I agree with ALL the other wise and wonderful poster. Just give her time and keep working on yourself. Perhaps you can try to stay in contact with her somehow? I don't mean that you should say that you're ready already, but perhaps try to engage in friendly chat. Regardless, I do think that you should wait a little. Definitely wait two weeks at least. Then decide if you feel ready. In any case, I am wishing the BEST of Luck to BOTH of You! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Nkent77, your Family, your Friends, your Girlfriend and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!