I am not sure whether this is related to your Bipolar or not, although it certainly can be. Regardless, it is good that you're able to keep it under control. Keep working on it, I am sure you are making GREAT progress! As for your friends, I don't think you did anything particularly bad regarding your Crushes, although sleeping with one of HER crushes definitely means you have crossed a Line. Still, as long as you have dated or had Sex with people who aren't already dating or already married it should have been OK, I suppose. Of course that isn't possible anymore since you're Married as well. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @giddykitty, your Family, your Friends, your Husband and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!