I have CPTSD with psychosis and went to the hospital last July because of flashbacks that put me in a delusional state for a long time. The delusion is that the police are finally investigating the crime that my abusers committed that gave me CPTSD in the first place. As is common with PTSD psychosis, it helped me deal with the trauma and made me more functional.

Since coming out of the hospital, stabilized on meds (Zyprexa, Celexa, Wellbutrin), I have had a lot of difficulty getting back to my old routine. It was a shock to realize and accept the police aren't going to help me, so that kept me frozen for while, as did the Zyprexa which makes me drowsy. I also began having panic attacks. Self-care became a struggle, I stopped eating healthfully, and I became a couch potato for while. I also gained weight from the meds because they made me crave carbs.

Thankfully, I'm doing a lot better now. I'm getting up off the couch, getting out more, eating healthfully, and have gotten back to taking care of myself. With the help of DBT (dialectical behavioral therapy), I am no longer anxious. I'm finding that yoga is energizing me and I hope to continue with this on a regular basis. I've gone back into therapy and continued on the meds, both of which have helped me remain free of flashback delusions since the hospital. I've also come back to PsychCentral after a long haitus, and it's really helped me take some more steps forward.

My progress doesn't qualify me as a "success story" yet but I'm hanging in there. The PTSD forum here tends to be a little slow, so I wanted to thank all who post here as your insights have helped me grow since coming back here.

Ceara