Feeling a little better after a talk with a good friend tonight. She was also having a rough time and it made her feel better, too, so win-win. We discussed that if I don't ever get totally better mentally it would be okay. She told me I am still a great friend, daughter, etc and that this doesn't impact that. I have been feeling down about how I don't understand my issues, and getting in my head that I should be figuring out what's going on and working on it more. I got worried I wasn't doing therapy "right" and that I probably didn't give enough useful information to my psychiatrist to get help, and that if I've stumped my clearly competent psychiatrist this much that no one will be able to figure this out. I can see I am catastrophizing as I write this out haha. I think I'm just burnt out is all.
I had to get an extension on the project, but my mentor for it was really understanding and actually asked if I was okay. That was without me mentioning the nature of my issues was mental health, so I thought that was really nice of him. I am grateful to have supportive people in my life.
I do think that that talk with my friend was enough to ground me a bit and that I will have a better night for it. Making some dinner, then going to watch something funny, then might try this project again.

Sending compassion!