@Wander: I'm so sorry you're suffering.

@Jennifer 1967: I hope your test goes well. Try not to worry. I've had a couple cancer scares and they both turned out to be nothing.

In my news things are going not bad. I read about silencing my inner critic today and am hopeful. I got a nice haircut. I felt pretty miserable about a couple Scrabble losses online but i focused on the positives about them and feel a bit better. My hours are whack, going to bed at 2:00am, getting to sleep over an hour later and waking up at 1:00pm. It makes the day messy but i'm always stuck with this problem at this time of year so it's not a surprise. I'll be up before dawn in the Spring! Onward!

Edited: I had a moment of realization yesterday. We had a fire alarm (false) and i saw one woman had come down in her robe. She is an odd woman, a senior, very friendly and always on the go out and about town. I find her so appealing and charming and i noticed that we look alike! She's also got short grey hair and a soft round body. I've been condemning myself for my looks and yet i think SHE looks fine! I mean, we're not sexy or beautiful but she's pretty enough and i thought, why can't i extend the same compassion i feel for her to myself? So i've been feeling better about my looks. We're not winning any beauty contests but we're still good folks! There is more to life than being thin and sexy and i for one am glad!