I saw my therapist today and am officially depressed. I think it is a mild mixed episode because I can't fall asleep but once I am asleep I do sleep so maybe he's right. He did do something funny that made me really laugh and that was good. I like reminders that I am going to be ok.

I did manage to run one load of laundry tonight. Well, it needs to go in the dryer but at least I washed it. I'm totally out of clean clothes so this was desperate.

I did find out the cost of joining the Y and confirmed they have exercise machines, they just don't mention them on their web page. I don't want to pay money but it will make me go and I need exercise to fight this pre-diabetes thing and help me lose weight. Plus exercise is good for other reasons. I did find out that I can stop and swim at another Y on my therapy days as my Y doesn't have a pool but the other one does and I drive fairly close to it on the way home. So that would mean 2 days minimum to go use machines. This is a good thing, I just don't feel like doing it. I'll get there.

At least I'm getting some nutrition. I haven't had a bowl of rice in 2 days. That's a huge relief. I am so sick of rice.

For anyone who has seen my recent posts, I still am craving pizza so badly. Maybe in a month or so.