I was fondled by my brother when i was young, once when I was about 8 i think i woke up because i felt someone touching my leg and his hand was in my underwear, I never told anyone he never really touched me again physically but i used to hang out in his room because he had a lot of books and I read a lot and he would be in his bed naked etc he sometimes used to tell me that he had an experiment for us to do and sometimes he made me touch his privates i felt horrible and still do I’m 17 now and sometimes i still feel terrible and I hate myself sometimes, i never said anything because I’m afraid to and I also don't want to get him in trouble and I’m not sure if anyone would believe me because once I told my dad that he watches me when I’m in the bath and my dad didn't say anything, anyways this all stop when i went to live with my mom and he's far away from me now so he can't hurt me anymore.

I feel terrible now after writing this but I thought should share I’m going to go now and cry.