Downup, no you're not

the link to the self-help book is in the main index forum description. Dr Clay Tucker-Ladd is a member here who usually answers any questions regarding his free online book content. He is currently taking chemo and is in a tough battle, hopefully to return before long.
Take any subject you wish to read about, and on that linked site (his free online book) type the subject in and it will bring up all the references/links in the book.