It seems like that city in general is being quite toxic and unhealthy for you. Perhaps it is too extreme, but would it be possible for you to go to another City? I understand if you can't! I'd alsos uggest to keep trying with Dating Websites and similar things. Hopefully there's at least someone who will appreciate you for WHO YOU TRULY ARE! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @LundiHvalursson, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!