Thanks so much Crypts_Of_The_Mind,

As your signature statement says, you definitely took my breathaway with your heartfelt comments. Thank you for making someone like me feel like this, it means the world. I can't believe people have been nicer to me on here, than even friends I used to have in real life!!
It's nice that someone out there understands, when I feel alone right now.

I love the concept of changing the way I say things, not that I wish to be a copycat. I think this technique will really help me come to terms with my BPD and hopefully see the world in a better light.

I am emotionally unstable at the moment, but hoping I will slowly calm down and get back to me. I am certainly going to practise what you said, as obviously, what I am doing is not working right now.

I too, can really resonate with the tendency to think the worst in practically all situations.

I have had that feeling when someone doesn't phone you back. I know deep down you have to question/analyse it a different way and look the bigger picture. After all, agreeing with you, there could be many reasons why the person didn't call back.

I am going to really work on my behaviour with your precious advice. If I can pull it off with perseverance, you have convinced me I am capable of thinking healthier.

Luckily, after going to therapy yesterday I have arranged for some Clinical Psychological Therapy. It is with a Male psychologist (for the first time ever!) and hopefully he can give me his perspective on how I behave in my marriage and help me to control it so I don't keep pushing my husband away.

Thanks so much again, I can tell you are a kind, special person. x