My pdoc says I am now into some kind of treatment-resistant depression thing where it is going to be really hard to keep me euthymic or stable or whatever. That does seem to be what is happening. He has a special word for it but I don't remember it.

Anyhow, I would now just like not to be psychotic every day or manic regularly like I have been recently. And I would love to be not super depressed. But the doc says it is going to be hard. I might have to try Clozaril, I guess.