It went reaaally mega super fantastic.
He got what I was taking about when I told him I felt like depressed but unable to rest, always doing something, with no stop thoughts one after the other.
I am doing better since I am sleeping 6h a day.
We talked about focusing on keep going day by day. I told him I was worried I would end up IP again. He said he doesnt think being IP in the past means I will end up IP again. I have developed good coping skills. He said what I call "experiences" and "phenomena" are psychotic in nature, but what does matter is what I do when I am having them. The same when I am having abnormal moods. Oh, and how to get enough rest, I get really irritable and moody and a bit SUI when I am hyperactive and depressed if I am not able to sleep, It makes me much more depressed/agitated and I end up sligthly psychotic. He said he doesnt believe medication is the answer for everyone.
He encouraged me to write more

(I write a lot when I cant rest).
He knows I would rather avoid medication since they impair my cognition and after finishing my degree I am going to enter a PhD program. Yeahp, one of my professors likes my brain
I am working A LOT on my final year project.
More and more coping.
Next appointment in 3 month ahahah
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Crazy, inside and aside
Meds: bye bye meds
CPTSD and some sort of depression and weird perceptions
"Outwardly: dumbly, I shamble about, a thing that could never have been known as human, a
thing whose shape is so alien a travesty that humanity becomes more obscene for the vague resemblance."
I have no mouth and I must scream -Harlan Ellison-