Your Loved Ones are right, @MtnTime2896 - it is NOT your fault any of this is happening. I certainly understand why things are being so hard for you and why you are feeling like this, but please remember that. Remember that they are still there for you, and that they are there for you because they want to help you. They Love You. And you deserve to be Loved. please try not to be too hard on yourself, yes? Treat yourself with more kindness, yes? You deserve it. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @MtnTime2896, your Family, your Friends, your Girlfriend and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!