You cannot control your symptoms, MtnTime. None of us can. You are dealing with some serious illnesses. It is not your fault that you have all this on your plate. It is just what some of us are contending with, myself included.

I have tons of skills also, but I am still psychotic and manic all the freaking time. All the time. I do the best I can. There is no time-frame for this stuff. It happens when it happens. Stop judging yourself. Stope shoulding yourself. You are dealing with some major incurable brain diseases every single day with courage and dignity. You are a hero.

I find it helpful to make plans, yes, but when I am unable to fulfill some of them, I am very careful not to judge myself. I do what I can. Sometimes it's a fair bit, sometimes, it is just trying to deal with voices and mania by not having to go back to the hospital.

Hang in there!! You are doing the best that you can!! We support you!!