Rough night. Feeling "up" right now. Like I had like 5 large cold brewed coffees. The weather sucks and I have to drive in it to get to my NP appt I don't understand why she can't just call me and send over a prescription or something. I haven't been stable for weeks! I want to take an Ativan right now because it works pretty well on making me "come down" for a few hours, but I do want to be as alert as possible when driving in this sh(t.