Just wanted to say sorry, I work 12-hour shifts and tonight was the 2nd time I went to an NA meeting. Thank you BPcyclist, Divine1966, Open Eyes, and Have hope. I am listening to everything you all have said. It's not easy to absorb. I rifled through phone out of habit because before her rehab she'd do that to me. This does not make it right or justify my actions. It was me replaying things done in our past when she wasn't sober. I didn't take the high ground and try to be the better trusting person. I put myself in the area of her life she's trying to get out of.
The thing to me. and I hear and appreciate everyone taking the time to help, during the earlier part I was dumbing down my drinking...going from hard alcohol to beers at just 2 bottles a night after kids asleep. A 40 oz once in a while for a crappy day. My increased drinking came after I went down for Christmas to visit. her and after reading what I read in the texts. He was literally the last person she would talk to and first person she'd text in the morning.
I do hear you all and thank you, I am trying to practice the advice you have taken the time to give me. I apologized with as much as I could about intruding in on her life, for fighting with her every step of the way. For disrespecting her for what she is trying to do and for bullying my opinions. I'm backing off. Last month I barely texted except for what was needed. I left her her space and have been working on that part this week. I can't say thank you enough for helping me