Thanks Jennifer and Ann.

I have sorted out my meds this morning, fortunately.

With my friend, they are kind of oblivious to how they affect others. If I said how harming themselves would upset me, they would probably see that as another way to justify harming themselves, because it means they're "bad" or a burden or something. I mean, I don't think there is any way of interacting with them right now that is good for me. I don't have the emotional resilience just to listen as a supportive friend, because that kind of talk is pretty triggering and pretty much what I think about when I am very depressed. The only immediate way I could "help" would be to phone an ambulance when they tell me all of this stuff, but they wouldn't see that as helpful, and previously they have reacted very badly when friends have made them go to hospital when they've been suicidal.