That slope is slippery indeed! Powerless to stop it, even though you try to grab on to something...anything, but it all just seems to slip through your fingers. Yup, been there, far too many times if you ask me. But I have to agree with Sqrlb8, creating that soft place to fall is essential. Just keep modifying to meet the unique needs of each descent. Funny how it's always somehow different. But like others have said, this disorder is very chameleon like, with an endless palet of colors and themes. I don't know if this will help at all, but for me, I've learned to be able to keep a little bit of a sense of humor about the whole thing. I know, I know, you're all thinking, WHAT??????? But I mean really...it's not like we haven't been there before, and we will be again. Knowing that at all times, makes it easier to keep some-what of a sense of humor about it. Laugh about it. Yup, the jokes on us...so what? The jokes on everybody in one form or another...think about it. It helps me when I make fun of myself for whatever state I happen to be in. Not maliciously or with self-contempt, but with an "Ooops, I did it again!" attitude. Believe me, I understand the fear...the pain...the torment...the despair...the chaos...the ghosts...the nightmares...losing control of reality...the self-destructive patterns and the stupid things we do to cope with the insanity of it all...the shame...the guilt...the confusion...the self-loathing. So I know what I'm talking about, and encourage you to give a try, even if you have to fake it 'til you make it. Please understand, I am no way making light of the gravity of the situation and how horrible it feels...I'd just like to share what works for me....maybe someone can benefit from the method to my madness. TgrsPurr.