Am I distracting myself to think destiny could exist? Is it difficult to know how I feel about myself if I care what "god" intended for me? Did I once have the power to change my own destiny? Why do I feel so powerless now? I am very certain it is important to care what others think but ultimately aren't we responsible for creating our own future as we know it. I mean, not saying at this point in my life I believe I could be a spacefarere( a new word to me) but I would like to regain a few of the dreams I have lost hope on.