Just needing to share as to released all the negative thoughts and feelings that are stirring in me......

Talk about not feeling wanted...... While I know that spouse need time away from each other in order to remain content with each other I never thought I would feel so unwanted by my husband like I did today when my husband came home early from work at 4:30 and found me sitting on the cough instead at my nieces house baby sitting like I usually do until 6:00 PM.

..... our son works on Tuesday & Thursday, therefore, this is hubby's time to him self for two hours each night until I get home with take to eat for dinner,

I heard his work van drive up and I was like HAPPY to see him (and early at that) - but what do I get when he walks in the door..... but a "What are you doing Here" with a shocked look on his face - "You are not supposed to be here" - "Go back to _____ house" - "I want my time alone"

I was like...... well nice to see you too....... then he said "well, you know what I mean - I just wanted my time alone and now you are here" - I was like..... fine then, I will go to sleep so you can have your time alone with out me being in your space.

He could tell that I was upset (hurt) - and after he set down on the couch with a cold soda and some chips to munch on he asked me to come sit next to him..... I said "no" I will stay here in the chair as to not disturb you and your time sweetheart. He said: Well, if I am your sweetheart then please come sit by me...... I said "no" and remained in my chair for my heart was full of hurt and rejection by now.......

I did go to bed (for three hours) and hubby seemed happy with his time to his self...... I woke up and my husband went to bed with in an hour of me getting up. We had a few tiffs before we departed - him to bed me to the living room.

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Now What? - was I stupid for acting as I did or are we both at fault........ be honest now - don't spare my feelings, as I already feel like an ugly heel.