I just got through all the paperwork for the back taxes with the IRS that my husband never bothered telling me about & never did anything about himself with the IRS for almost the past year. I got everything mailed to them so they can fix the amount...in the end, it wasn't anything close to the huge amount they first claimed because of several stupid mistakes my husband made on the 2005 taxes.

I got all the paperwork in that the loan officers needed for the refi that my husband was spinning his wheels with. I am still waiting to hear if they are willing to refi or not.....but I know whatever is supposed to happen will happen.

I am working on getting all the receipts together from the items that were stolen out of my truck last Thanksgiving...besides my flute.

The only thing left to really have to do is get the patient assistance paperwork filled out & see if I can't get some financial help with my medication.....that $4050 is a lot of money to have to come up with every year (the amount the part D wont cover called the donut hole). At $1200 a month for the med, I get to that point within 2 months.

The only thing that I had really left to do was clean up the basement & my doggie crates. With all the cold weather, snow, & rain, I had left them in most of the winter & had tried to keep everything cleaned but when I got overloaded with paperwork, I was doing good to make sure the food & water was there for the last few weeks......so I had a mess to clean up. I got that done on Tuesday & thouht I could finally sit back & breathe & start working on the yard & the painting of the house......nothing else to worry about.....just pray for the refi so I can finish up the barn, fencing, replacing the pool that the cleaner ate a hole in last summer, & getting the arches fixed so I can finish the painting & staining.

Well.....no such luck. I hadn't thought much about the puddle of water on the floor in the basement after the huge freeze we had & the snow. I thought is might have sat on the deck & when it thawed, it all melted & ran into the basement. Not quite what happened. I had cleaned up that huge puddle of water & the other day, I found another puddle. It was after a huge rain & it seemed wrong since the wind doesn't even blow in that direction, but I mopped it up.....thinking that had to be the reason.

No such luck.....when I was cleaning up the doggie pens, the puddle was back all along the floor that opens to the back yard & all down the wall was water marks in the drywall. I tried to figure out what was above it, but that didn't make sense, the kitchen if over it, but not where the water flows (I know water runs all over the place so you can't really see where it originates from). I got it cleaned up & then yesterday when I was walking in the basement, I found another drip puddle. I looked up & there wasn't anything wet right above the drip. The pipes were over a ways, but it wouldn't drip that way....& it looked all wet around the pipe that was coming through the floor.......the downstairs toilet.......I don't use it much & I am the only one in the house. Then the huge oops. I was standing in the kitchen looking at one of the walls & pulled at the painted over wallpaper. I pulled & it came pealing off. Under that paper was a very damp wall. Then I pealed the paper up towards the ceiling & there was a huge black moldy area. I had just cleaned that area the end of Feb, beginning of March & it wasn't like that. What is upstairs it the shower I always use. It's a huge mess & I am not in any financial position to deal with this mess. Then I remembered that there was a home warrentee that came with the purchase of the house, which is up on May 15. I called them immediately yesterday & the plumber they gave me the name of didn't have anyone available......they called the home warrantee company & they were supposed to call me back today with another company.....they didn't bother, so I called them just at the end of the day & the other company is supposed to call me tomorrow & set up an appointment to check out what is going on.

I have visions of a huge mess. The upstairs shower?????down the wall into the kitchen & that wall completely ruined......then down into the floor & dripping into the basement. Unfortunately, my second bath isn't draining, so I will have to fix that so I can have a shower while the other one is being fixed. Visions of my whole house in that area being torn apart from top to bottom.

I just needed a break from things going wrong.....just for a little while.....but I guess if it was going to break...it was better for it to happen before the home warrentee was up than right after.....but I didn't need for anything more to happen. I am exhausted.....mentally & physically from the lack of sleep that came when I was working on all the paperwork.

When do I get the break I need......I don't see a break for the rest of my life honestly.....with no one to help out at all on a 10 acre farm & no money to hire help......I am going to be exhausted for the rest of my life....praying for a few hours of rest when I force myself to take it. The nap in the middle of the day, just to feel a bit of energy for awhile when I wake up.

I just want everything to quit being broken.....there are many broken things around here that are on my list to fix, but finding the energy to do them is another story.

The ongoing saga of my move to Kentucky,
Debbie