Well why don’t you keep THIS thread as your ongoing thread instead of making new ones ? It can help members here of keeping track of your struggles and good things , numerous people do this and it works out well.

As for drinking to the point of blacking out ? that’s just a choice, if this time has scared you enough then you won’t likely put yourself in a position to do that again.

When you mix Bipolar and alcohol unless it a drink every blue moon in my opinion your just asking for trouble and certainly more instability.

I hope things settle down for you soon