God, yesterday was enlightening and infuriating!!! 3 weeks ago I told my doctor that I was stressed majorly, and depressed so he started me on celexa. (Which I wasn't so sure about.) Had a follow-up yesterday with my new doctor to see how it's going. 2 and I half weeks, I've been feeling pretty good stress wise, so I thought Great! Then yesterday middle of the day, Overwhelming stress, heart racing, sweating, INTENSE irrational rage... This is what I've been feeling almost every day for the last year and a half!!! Realized how %#@&#! it feels now that I had a break from it. Called my friend because I was so disgusted she said " you had a panic attack." Now this whole time I have never thought about panic attack because that is not how it happened when I was younger. Then I would be in the corner, can't breath, walls pressing in.... This is different. I started thinking about adrenaline and fight or flight reactions, apparently I have been going into fight mode! That rage has really been creeping me out. So had alot to tell the doc! She upped my celexa and added Amitriptyline. I told her I've been having a hell of a time sleeping so she said that a night will help. So... we shall see.
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