I very much do. My birthday comes on a holiday, New Years Day. On New Years Eve it feels like I should be celebrating and having a blast. But I never do. My family is away from me. My friend and I would do a little something and that's it. It doesn't seem to be enough. I get phone calls but it's not like having people with me.

Believe it or not, in my whole life, I never had a birthday party for me. And I probably never will for the rest of my life. Also birthdays get scary for me because it could be the year that my health will fall apart.