Many years ago, when I was in school my "practice", so to speak, was always to leave everything until the last possible minute then cram like the dickens & (somehow) manage to squeak by. So I have some idea regarding where you're at here. My anxiety level during these periods was frequently off the charts...either that or I would be dreaming of simply chucking it all & going off to live by myself somewhere completely off the grid. Perhaps you're entertaining similar thoughts? Anyway... I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time & feeling so down on yourself. Please take care. I send you my best wishes...