Sending you big hugs. Lots of young people are having trouble finding their path. I have to believe their is a reason for it but am not privy to the secret. I thought I might want to study to be a forest service ranger; got into the school that specialized in it then changed to the farthest school away at the last moment because of having a need to have more distance between me and my mom. At that University, I couldn't pass calculus so thought one of the few degrees I could pass was a major in elementary education. I would never have selected this degree without a push (fate) but I make students laugh and know I am good at teaching young children English conversational skills: we learn best when we have fun. There was a reason none of my other majors or jobs worked out!