Well these are some weird recent conversations. Maybe on the outside I look well and have become an expert at masking symptoms for close to 20 years after being diagnosed. I feel I've gained a lot of empathy from realizing how in the past my mood disorder affected others. I was very hard on myself, unforgiving of some things I did, and hated who I was.

There are a lot of days where the smallest things irritate me from being very mentally fatigued or everything around me seems too slow and inefficient, that I want to punt something across the neighbourhood. It take a lot of focus to be patient and look like I'm normal in those moments.

I don't believe anyone who is telling me I could be misdiagnosed has any ill intentions, but at the same time, it does feel disrespectful to all the work I am doing to stay as healthy as possible. I don't know how to respond or even if I should.