So I did 3 weeks, and at the end of that, I felt better physically. Not all OK or anything, but clearly the worst stuff has passed. It's been hard. Now for the mental hell. Sigh. I have no other choice than try to struggle through it. While so dopesick I just wished for my body to stop acting up. But now I wonder how long I will feel depressed like heck. Also I have a lot of work to do to get strength back since I basically maybe walked 2 kilometers in all in three weeks. So out of shape. Not to complain. But heck... this is the hardest time quitting. The others have been much easier. It's like it was giving me hell cuz I didn't plan to start up again. LOL.

Anyway... what will I be now that I'm no longer a drug addict? I mean, all the time spent for drug contacts, purchase, trying to keep safe from authorities, getting untainted stuff... all that took up quite a bit of time. Now I'm nothing.