Dont be sorry for the vent - that's part of what this forum is for ❤

Your parents should be very happy to have a son like you if they are not already. You are kind. You are caring. You are honest. You are resilient. You admit when you are wrong - n try to make amends.

These are traits that you possess that will stay with you long past your school years. These are the kind of traits your parents n everyone else should look to when determining if you are a good person or not. You ARE a good person.

I know schoolwork can be daunting and absolutely frustrating- especially studying. I had the same issues of not wanting to.force myself to do.homework or study when I.was attending school. Studying went better if I was studying with friends. Do you have friends that would have a "study party" with you? (You study together n take breaks to have a little fun at times to not overload yourselves but then study some more). If not - I suggest motivating yourself by promising yourself different "little rewards" if you get a good grade.

Try not to judge yourself based on.school. I honestly dont know anyone who doesnt suffer from the "I dont wanna do this - I just wanna relax" blues at least at times when it came to schoolwork and studying.