Anyone else here in therapy with an attachment disorder? I have been diagnosed with disorganized attachment in the past and just started with a new therapist.

To put it briefly, disorganized attachment occurs when a person is capable of bonding with others and very much wants to, but is terrified to do so. It comes from the type of trauma where a caregiver is sometimes very nurturing and sometimes very cruel.

I desperately need consistency in order to feel attached to someone, and my therapist is extremely consistent. I feel very comfortable with her. But I don't want to get too attached. She is on vacation this week and it's harder than I expected.

I have a full life - I work, I have a couple of close friends I care deeply about, I have a pet, I have a spiritually fulfilling life - so why is my brain complicating things by getting attached to someone new? It seems very dangerous and threatening.

Can anyone relate to how I'm feeling? Any words of advice?