Oh Tryin, honey,
I'm so sorry you are feeling bad...I do understand that feeling so very well. But please know that you do not fail at everything you do. You are so kind, and caring, and give your heart so freely...those are rare and wonderful characteristics. You have been such a good friend to me, certainly not a failure.
A long time ago now, my dad and I were driving back up to college for the start of the semester. I was driving the car, going about 55 miles and hour, and suddenly hit a patch of black ice. The car spun, and when I turned the wheel into the spin, it just spun back the other way. So there I was, at the wheel as the car fishtailed wildly back and forth, sliding down the road for what seemed like forever. I didn't think the car would ever stop, and all I wanted to do was give up. I was crying, saying "I can't do this, I can't do this..." And my dad, who usually deals with things like this by yelling, just sat calmly beside me telling me over and over, "You're doing great, just keep it up..." I always remember that time when it seems like life is just spinning out of control and I can't do anything to stop it. And I remember my dad saying, "You're doing great, just keep it up." Because even when we can't see the end, if we keep working at it, there is a better time ahead.
You are doing the right things, working on making things better for yourself. So let me be the one to tell you, "you're doing great, just keep it up." And I know that you are gonna get heading down the road again.
*hugs*
Love ya,
Jo
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If she spins fast enough then maybe the broken pieces of her heart will stay together, but even a gyroscope can't spin forever
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