I understand your Anxiety, @HALLIEBETH87! Personally I think you have PLENTY to be proud about. You are working, studying, taking care of yourself and your Grandmother and keeping yourself busy. Not many people would be able to do what you're doing - I know I certainly would struggle doing ALL of this! So good job! Ignore what your mean relatives are saying. I hope you have GOOD, SUPPORTIVE relatives as well in your Life! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @HALLIEBETH87, your Family, your Friends, your Grandmother and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!